Po - The light of my life...

I miss you..

What do I miss about you ?

Our first talk...

Our walk till d car..

From fb to messaging to phone calls..

Knowing about you..your likes..dislikes..

Similar interests...

Eating habits..

Your schedules and routines..

Knowing about your friends..

Learning about your moods..

Exchanging hugs and kisses over phone...

The anxiety to meet..

Telling you everything about myself..

Sharing the minutest details..

Making you laugh...

Acting stupid..

Being real..

Talking you to sleep..

Our second meet...

Our first movie together..

Natrani..

Our walk and talks in person at gandhi ashram..

Our first ever hug..

Our ride on your bike..

The tensions during that time..

My uneasiness...ur concern..

Our second hug..and the feeling to just keep holding on..

Your house..

Your green room..

Our first dance..

And how I kept singing..

Sitting so close to you..

Playing with your hand...

The way I was resting on you...letting myself loose !

Your sweet lil kiss on my cheek..

Your hug..the intensity of it !!

The rush to board my train..

Your smile n sparkling eyes when I gave you the flying kiss ..

Talking more..and more...

Being so far..but so close..

Loving each other without a doubt..no expectations..just pure love..

Your trip to surat..

Being at Taj..but yet being unsatisfied !!

The urge to feel your warm hug..your sweet kiss..n still holding back ! :(

Talking all the more openly after that...

Expressing all desires through phone..

Kissing on your nose...

Kissing all over your face...

Hugging was felt just as good as it was when in person..

The news about your job...

The happiness and sadness about u going far from me...

Managing to sneak out..and come all the way to ahmedabad..

Mom and her calls and the fuck up then...

Seeing you at the station..

My fear turning vapour as soon as we hugged...

The feeling of relief..

The security and relaxation of being in your strong arms..

Your hug from behind..in your room...

Dancing together..

The look in your eyes..

The softness with which u held me..

Your face..your smile..your lips...

Your kiss..

My nervousness..

My submission..

Our kiss...

How I held on to you...

How I couldn't stop telling u how much I love you..

Holding your hand all through our way to baroda...

Hugging u..sleeping in ur laps..

Being so vulnerable.. As if mere a look was enough to shatter me to pieces !

Seeing you off at baroda station..

Not wanting to let you go..nor to leave you n go back home..

Talking to you about if all day long..

Trying my best to make you take care of yourself in d new city...

Instructing you about what to do..shouting at you for not having breakfast....

Making sure you were fine there...

Sending receiving pictures..

Trying to keep up with each other..

And...

I want to say no more...

How things changed..

How we grew apart..

How I fought with u..

How we tried keeping ourselves on track..

How you found someone else..

How our friendship turned hopeless..

How I cried..we cried..

How everything fell apart !!

:'(

N today..when I'm writing this.. I don't even know what do u feel..

Not talking to u..I feel very very scared Po..very alone..

I don't know what should I do about the picture I clicked today.. Whom should I show it to..with whom will I talk now.. With whom will I share my minute to minute details.. Whom will I cry to.. Who will ask me to eat.. Who will make me sleep.. Who will kiss me..who will hold me against him till I feel I'm breathing again... Who will love me... How will I survive !!!!

I wish I could stop this..wish I could stop u.. I want to talk to u..I want to see u.. Feel u... Hide myself in ur arms... Forget everything... I want u to forgive me... To please understand... To not let me go so far that it becomes impossible for us to come back together... To Be with me please... Talk to me... Meet me.. See how difficult it is.. To please do something... To please stop the time... Don't let this week pass...don't force me to go away from you...

Being without you is as good as being dead !

Don't let me die...